Kenapa gw merasa hidup gw tambah absurd… bukan tambah normal? gokil banget…suasana yg hectic, tapi sepi pdhal kl dipikir-pikir ‘rame’ banget… tp rame bukan keramaian yg diharapkan… nelangsa banget?!
Masih mengenai masalah mumetnya minggu2 UAS, betapa tersiksanya batin ini sampai rasanya kalo becanda dan tertawa lepas akan masuk neraka karena ada 2 paper yang menunggu untuk saya kerjakan… siksa tapi sudah jadi kewajiban seorang mahasiswa (sebegitu edunnya kah kuliah?)
Namun entah kenapa paper2 laknat itu kurang menyita pikiran dan konsentrasi, pdhal that what i supposed to do..instead off fooling around and pay my attention on someone..(uuhh curhatnya mulai menyimpang) hah.. benar2x sebuah sweetest sin, having a loads of thought about him..it’s suck but it’s makes me feel so secure at the same time!
So sad di saat butuh pengalihan, dan benar2 TERALIHKAN dari apa pun juga…
Shoot… i never think that this semester gonna make me soooooo fffuuuuuccckkkiiiinnnggg depressed!!!
I’m so ready to explode, my brain seems had a serious problem, not to mention other shit that disturbed me beside papers…papers and more papers….you see… i’m so bloody ready to kill someone or kill myself to tell you the truth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH…..when will this end?!!!!!!!
Dear Punk Chocolate
Dope, i can’t believe that i still remember your nickname… in fact that you have a several nicknames 
PC.. the truth is i dunno why i wrote this and why i addressed it to you, since i know that you won’t read it! But i think its fair if i said that "I miss you so much and i need you badly!"
My world is crumbling right now, my house turn into hell, school sucks, i just threw out the love of my dreams, your gone.
Why are you leaving? what’s up with the mid-night call? the 24/7 sms? the weekly e-mail? the ‘i’ll never leave you!’ stuff? it sucks when i pick up my cell phone i couldn’t find your name or check my e-mail and you never send me any!?!
i don’t know how you sleep at night, but all i know is that i keep on whishing and asking God ‘where is my friend?’ i need you PC….
But, just want you to know,
i love you.. always have always will!
-S-
Setelah 4 hari yang melelahkan (but soooo much fun) i got back home, miss all my kitten but i had a bad news i’ve lost 4 of 5 my baby kitten huhuhuhu…. sedih, merana,galau… huff (too much…)
Anyway, seharusnya i’m having a blast getaway tp nampaknya goodbye bali, jogja…
argh… liburan yang karon……
Hmm, it’s been a tough week for me. School are very much exhausted, lot’s of fuct up things goin on… a dozen of homework, my mid test score are just fuct!
On the weekend there’s view cool event and I won’t be able to attended, because I’m stuck with my own laziness…
Gosh, I really need a break “I NEED A MOTHER FUCKER HOLYDAY!!!!!” I had to postpone my plan to go to
Bali
on July with Gadis, ‘Cos on the moth, is the schedule of my final test! Its sucks… I mean I made the plan since March! How pathetic is that?! My school life is so hectic that I almost don’t have time for myself, I don’t have the time to take care of my hair and nails, I don’t have the time to go shopping, the only place to take a ‘shopping’ is XBT and it’s in Giant! Hyper mart (ouch…that’s lame) man, I don’t even have time to watch movie in theater or even TV/DVD!!! What is happening to my world?!
But, what can I except if I study since 9 to 9? I know there’s a long spare break but still I have to stand by at campus all day long! Suck… there’s no entertainment there! L I feel miserable!!!
I can’t hardly wait to get a holyday soon!!! Which mean in August, hmm… but, worth to wait though! ^_^
So from now on… just take a deep breath and count to 10 and say loud and clear “WHOOSSAA…!” (Do the rubbing ears move!)
Hey, you I don’t like you’re girlfriend
I think you’d better get a new one
Hey, I could be you’re girl friend
She so stupid! What the hell are you thinking?
Ouch… sounds biasa aja, just a typical a girl who feels so jealous with her crush! But guess what? That is just so true. Menyebalkan memang, membenci seseorang yang sayangnya justru adalah yang terpilih (F*CK!) don’t you just wish that you could closed your eyes and in the count of three she’ll be gone… he stay single again & the door to entered his life is wide open? But, unfortunately you don’t have a genie that will make your entire wish coming true, or the power to make someone disappear! That just sucks!! And all you could do just hate her in peace and pray that he finally able to see that, she is a super massive dumb byotch! Mean girl!!!! (Actually I’m not, I just act like one!)
Menempatkan seseorang as your guilty pleasure seharusnya adalah crime tingkat 1, setara dengan serial killer or teroris (ya… memang sangat berlebihan sekali!) tp menjadikan someone as yor guilty pleasure adalah sesuatu yang sangat indah! It’s like you get banana split with 5 of your favorite ice cream and lot’s of toping! Ehem… taste so good!
Hmm, betapa rupawannya dia malam itu, walaupun dirinya adalah seorang bajingan hmm… bajingan yang rupawan!?! Namun, bagaimana pun juga dialah sosok yang pernah menetap cukup lama dalam hati dan otak ini!!!
KEPARAT KAMU TAMPAN !!!
Tough Girl Never Say "ach"
well it didn’t works out for me then….
it’s sick when i have to pretend that I’m okay, this sucks that i have to make sure that my whole world is fine although in reality its turn up side down!
It’s a miracle for me to be able to stand up and show the world a smile on my face.
Why do i have to be the one who always give in? why can i stand and fight for the thing that i really want? being sacrificed for other dreams become a saint for everyone else…
if that’s the case i don’t wanna be a saint?!I’m sick of being other "savior!"
It’s true what people say that life’s a truly pain in the ass….
people pushed you to do something that you hate, and they say it’s for your good…. Oh yeah kiss my ass mother fucker… i don’t need you or anybody else to telling me what’s good for me!!!!
